This post is going to be as blatant as it can ever be.

I honestly am afraid of you leaving.

I never once thought that I would be with someone like you. I never thought that of all places I'd meet you at a place where barely 100 people would go to on a normal day. I honestly never thought that this would happen to me.

Even though things can be rough at times, my heart still knows its place.

Sometimes, I wish that we could just be us and not care about anything, or anyone. It seems impossible. I don't know how this will turn out, but I've gotta try. Even though this takes the best of me, I will try my best.

I really hope that I will not be forced.

Because I know I wont.

Never say come what may. Because what comes, will be a result of your actions.

'The people who survive the sword, will find favor in the desert.'

i dont know if its right or wrong

but come sit with me

i want to hear the beat of your heart

if its good or bad

come be with me

and i'll give you the key to my heart

I've completely lost touch.

The moment where you feel as though you need to know something for real.

I've decided to spend time away from things. But I can only do it in secret.

I've learnt not to trust.

I have never felt so low in my entire life.

Before I die, I'd like to do something nice

what may seem right to me, may to seem right to you.

a selfish statement one might say. but isn't both parties selfish if both parties think one is wrong and the other is right? a pointless argument I would say.

the fact is, all humans perceive different things in different ways. we all have different believes and attitudes towards any subject that is presented before us.

even though some of us have the same beliefs and attitudes, we too view these beliefs and attitudes differently. and this brings me to the next point.

something right can only be deemed correct by the society one may be in. an example would be: in 1939, nazi Germany, the persecution of the jews. the nazis say that it is correct to kill the Jews, only because it is socially acceptable. they feel no form of guilt whatsoever. during the Nuremberg trails, nazi war criminals were convicted because of their crimes. only because the allies saw what they have done to the jews as immoral only because they do not accept nazi ideology in that society.

respect. that is what is lacking now. I was brought up to think narrow. after a certain series of events I now see that sometimes, accepting each other for who they are, whatever their beliefs or attitudes are, can show how much of a person you are.

you might disagree with my post. or about the example that I give. because from your standpoint, killing is wrong. I too have to agree with you. but I couldn't find a better example to state my point.

World

About two days back, I was watching a documentary in school about satanist.

A satanist family to be exact. Thoughts raced through my head as I watched, and how they answered the person who was interviewing them.

Questions start to pop in my head as I ponder about this topic. What will happen to us if we do not have God in our lives. From this standpoint, I think that any religion would most probably promote goodness. Be it Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, etc.

A world without the basis of God, would mean that everyone would be fighting only for oneself and not for others; and the topic everyday would be, self preservation. Everyone would be exalting one self with his or her own successes, taking revenge on a brother because he can done wrong to you. Doesn't it sound too familiar?

What then? A world without God would mean a world without love.

To be continued....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egtm0XwShOc
What if you jump, and the arms that catch you, catch you by suprise?

Hands held tight, through the night

I cant let go.

The constant need to be better.

I've been wanting, striving to be better than what I can really be. Sometimes it makes me sick. Sick in the stomach. So sick that I feel that I need to throw up, or just regurgitate something out of my system. I forgot how to live.

"I need to be better." Phrases like these pop up in my head whenever I get my results. Even though its an 'A', I tell myself that I need to be better. I beat up myself over a 'B' and I kill myself whenever I see a "C". I just refuse to stop... I want to stop. But I just cant. I want to switch off for a day and watch the world go by, and not care about a single thing.

Watching movies, sometimes I get jealous of the various characters. Them living their dreams, doing what they love.

There is a void that must be filled. You said, 'look for Me, and i will find.'