I am tired.
So damn tired.
This is how I honestly feel:
I'm hurt, lost, confused, sad and lonely. Thoughts of taking the coward's way out have been criss crossing through my mind. I need someone here for me. I called, no one's there, I text, no one's there to reply.
Though you may think that you're here for me, I beg to differ. You're physically here. Mentally, emotionally, I feel you're not.
I need someone. I need someone who can be here for me.
In school, I put on a brave front, doing presentations, being the leader.. Inside, I am alone. I sad and lonely person, who yearns for my darling's attention. I'm afraid to speak my mind to you. For I know, you'll have something better to say, or to rebut my views and feelings.
I'm afraid for speaking or ranting to you. Maybe I've done certain things that hurt you, but I've apologized.Sincerely.From the very bottom of my heart.
I cant go one like this.
I need a let out, and I cant find any. Maybe if I end it all,... things will be better.
I'm confused. I'm lost.
I wanna... die.
